Friday, July 8, 2011

“You will always have home.”

This is soooo true for me anymore. My life is in a constant state of change and has been since my freshman year of college. The last time I talked to my mom on the phone I made the comment that. “I wish life was more like high school. Never changing, and if it does change it’s only at the start of the school year.  [Usually with new classes or a new boy, something not so stressful.] But now, who knows where I'll even be in December. A lot can happen before then.”

So, for about a week I was completely de-stressed. I no longer had to worry about remembering everything I was learning for a test and remember paperwork and this and that. I just needed to live, enjoy summer, plan for my upcoming birthday, and try not to screw up too much at work. I should have basked in that time and appreciated it more.  Now I am scrambling to figure out a living situation and get back to some sort of balance before August when my life goes back into a state of upheaval until I get used to classes and juggling an almost full-time job. {For any of my friends from college who are reading this, this is why you never saw me last year. I like to stay busy. I have acquired a mild form of A.D.D. while working fast food and I must constantly be in a state of motion until I crash and don’t wake up for 12 hrs.} Therefore, not a whole lot of time, for well, anything.  I’m working on fixing this. 

But in a phone call from my best friend Em we talked about how you have to take the good with the bad and in her words, “It’ll all work out, and besides you always have home.” Home seems to be the only thing keeping me rooted lately. The love I feel for my family and the desire of my spiritual growth are the only things keeping me sane anymore. Funny how a three hour conversation with your best friend makes everything seem so much easier. Everything is going to be okay. 

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